The One that Got Away?

BAMMER47 (1976): Have ever felt like you missed a golden opportunity for a relationship with the person you were meant to be with? The...

Apr 6, 20212 min read

Fetishizing the Belongings of an Unrequited Crush

BAMMER47: Have you ever had a crush on a guy you couldn’t reveal, so you fetishized a belonging of his as a way of feeling closer to him?...

Mar 13, 20212 min read

Kissing Summer

STORY: I wanted to disappear. “Hi, Paul! What are you doing these days? Where are you working?” I stared blankly at this acquaintance,...

Oct 22, 202014 min read

Ralfie

STORY: Our hearts resemble houses constructed by our parents. When we’re young and something breaks they repair the damage. As we get...

Sep 24, 20195 min read

Angels and Demons

STORY: We five were an unusual gang—“the famous five”—as we liked to call ourselves. It was comprised of me, my best friend Mark, his...

Aug 8, 20196 min read

First Love

STORY: 1978—Werner Seelig and I met in the South of France. He was twenty-one and from Indiana. I was twenty, a hippy from California. We...

Nov 9, 20182 min read

Unlimited Possibilities

STORY: March 1976: The year was 1975 and I was 23 at the time, living in D.C. I was working in the U.S. Treasury Department for a...

Jun 9, 20182 min read

Willie

I’ve described how, in 1976, I met Willie Wilson, who introduced me to the passionate joy of infatuation between men. While visiting DC...

Mar 27, 20182 min read