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I Feel Ya
STORY: The evening was warm and moonless. The only light was the odd firefly bobbing about as we three slipped into the cool waters of...
Apr 14, 20212 min read


What's the Secret to a Long, Happy Relationship
BAMMER47: In the LGBTQ world, until recently (and depending on where you reside, even now), we lacked the advantage of support from our...
Mar 17, 20211 min read


Mea Culpa
STORY: At the age of 19, I began to realize that something was wrong with my soul. I live in Turkey, a Muslim country with a long secular...
Sep 12, 20203 min read


Speedy and Bam
STORY: When I was in graduate school in Boston in the mid-1970s, my attraction to other guys was proving intractable and I feared it...
Sep 2, 20205 min read


BAMMER and Me: Caleb Holland, Self Discovery (Part 1)
PODCAST—EPISODE 1: Our first episode is about cross-generational perspectives on LGBTQ issues and themes between Mike Balaban and...
Jun 8, 20191 min read
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